overthinking

its somewhat insulting to find that and over abundance of feelings and misconstrued thoughts can lead to distrust, i am guilty of that, and i can say that from experience. we think sometimes maybe somethings are too good to be true.. i am learning to trust in God and i don't understand why completely, why He exists, and does so in the hearts and minds of billions and is everywhere and with us at all times.. and to understand that completely, wow, that is beyond our human comprehension... but that doesnt mean He doesnt exist or that i shouldnt trust Him. with true divine love its hard for us to comprend that there is anything other than that on His adgenda.. only He is without sin and can forgive others sin.. we are not perfect, the rest of us are human and we do make mistakes, although that doesnt make us incapable of being and accepting a true love, it may be hard to grasp without some doubt and rational or irrational thoughts without knowing God's love for me, thats why i'm in the process of growing and learning to love how He wants us to and so i can also too in that way...when i think about it i guess i'm starting to see how much i want to build a relationship with Him in this life so i can truly, without doubt, enjoy the love of my life..